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[Kerra is not normally one for regrets, and she doesn't regret what happened with Aqua, not really. It had been necessary at the time, it had seemed enjoyable for both of them at the time, and it played well with the world so nobody should've had any issues.

But it was still embarrassing. She should have been better. She shouldn't have risked taking advantage of someone, and that was what it was. Even if it had seemed necessary at the time.]

...Hey. Yeah. Probably.

Do you want to meet up?

[ Aqua doesn't regret it either. She had been in such desperate need at the time that she probably would've jumped to anyone, and Kerra was more than wonderful as a partner. So there's that, but she also knows that considering how this planet was, it was incredibly likely that it could end up happening again.

And in that case, she should probably know the other woman as someone other than "that attractive neighbor I have sex with".]

... We should. This is probably a conversation that's better to be had in person. [ A pause. Then... ] Should I head to your apartment again? Or should we meet at a cafe or restaurant or something?

[There's nothing wrong with that, as she sees it, but Kerra is...skewed...in her relationship with attachments. Very, very skewed.

Still, she's right though. They should probably be more than just sex-friends.]

Sure? My door's open. I'll put tea on, or coffee, if you prefer.

[She just seems like a tea person.]

Tea would be lovely.

And I'll be right up.

[ With that said, she's going to go ahead and leave her apartment, heading over to Kerra's. She's still a little confused about how she should be feeling about this whole situation, but well, that's what this whole conversation was supposed to help them figure out.

Once she makes it to Kerra's apartment, she almost goes to knock before remembering what the other woman said and just opening the door. ]

Hey. I'm here.

[She'll find Kerra seated on the couch, casually lounging in shorts and a loose-fitting shirt, hair still a bit tousled. She never puts a ton of effort into looking tidy, except during very formal occasions. Talking to someone who's already seen you naked doesn't seem to count, so she hadn't bothered.

There's a couple of mugs of steaming liquid and a tray of sugar and other things on the table, so Kerra waves Aqua on over.]

Come in, get cozy.

[Drawing her legs up under her, she takes her own mug and curls her fingers around it.]

What's on your mind?

[ Aqua's a little surprised to see Kerra wearing something so simple like that, but that's not really something she even cares about at the moment.

She does go down to sit next to Kerra, taking the other mug but not drinking the tea just yet as she tries to, well, think of her answer to Kerra's question.]

A... a lot of things, actually. Mostly related to... what we did before. Even after two months here all of this is just so new to me...

Right...I figured.

[Aqua had seemed almost bashful at first, until the hormones took over. Kerra scoots closer, reaching out to gently put a hand on the other's shoulder, tilting her head so she could look her in the eye.]

Do you regret it? Or...feel bad about how it happened? Because I don't.

[ Aqua blushes a little when she feels that hand on her shoulder, but thankfully the moons aren't doing anything to them right now, so it's just a touch. With a slight tingle of moonlacing that she'll do her best to ignore at the moment.]

No. I don't regret it. Or rather I don't regret that it's you. It's just... I barely even know how I'm supposed to feel about anything like that normally, and twice a month the moons just keep... doing that.

... You weren't even the first time where I met someone and then ended up having sex with them.

Well...

[Kerra's hand stays right where it's at, not moving, simply squeezing lightly and letting the pressure and Moonlacing hopefully take off some of the edge.]

There's a couple of things you should maybe mull over. First, do you enjoy sex? I don't mean in a moonlacing, or forced, sort of way. But do you enjoy the act? Aside from the pleasant effects of moonlacing, would you like to have sex?

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[ That contact actually does help a little, and Aqua thinks over her answers to Kerra's question for a few moments.]

I... I think so? It's not like it isn't enjoyable, but... I also don't really know how it's supposed to go without everything that this place adds to it. [ Sure, it was easy enough to tell what was the feeling of moonlacing vs what was from sex specifically, but even so, most of what she had done had been because she had been under the effects of Iris or all of the moons at once.]

So your first time was here...

[That makes sense, she thinks.]

And I'm guessing it was during a moon. So you never made the conscious choice to have sex on your own, did you?

[It's a simple thing, but it is something that can color a person's judgment.]

Yes, it was during the first Iris moon here.

[ And while it's not that she necessarily had sex with someone that she wasn't attracted to (at the very least she's pretty sure that everyone she had slept with at this point is someone she would've been drawn to somewhat without it), it didn't change that Iris had her in a situation where she definitely needed it.]

... I guess that wasn't the case for you though?

No. Not at all.

[Kerra's expression turns a little rakish...]

I figured my experience would've been obvious.

[Okay. Sorry. She's teasing but yeah...]

I enjoy it. I don't get to do it much, but I still like it.

[ Aqua laughs a little nervously at Kerra's response. ]

Yeah, I guess that really should've been obvious, though considering it's already been a couple of months since I arrived here, it isn't unthinkable to think that you could've arrived here with no experience and just... adapted to it better.

[ She pauses for a moment, before deciding to ask a question. ]

So... how exactly was it for you? I mean, outside of here? Was there anyone that you were in a relationship with?

Fun.

[That's Kerra's immediate answer. She doesn't have to put a ton of thought into it.]

It was just...fun. I am not able to have a relationship, outside of here, but 'hooking up' with people who I find attractive isn't a problem. I just can't commit to anything long term like dating.

[ Huh. That wasn't the answer that she was expecting to hear; she would've figured that the whole 'have sex with people you don't know' thing was something specific to here. Not something that was apparently normal and accepted.]

I see. Is there any reason why you're not able to have a relationship back home? [ From what she could tell, Kerra doesn't have the same problem that Aqua would, which was just a lack of people to fall in love with.

Unless if she counted people she met on other worlds but they're really only supposed to go to other worlds when the worlds are actively in danger.]

Jedi aren't supposed to form attachments. We're at war, and we're constantly supposed to go from planet to planet, protecting the innocent.

[In her time, things really were that black and white.]

Even if it weren't a problem with my vows, I wouldn't want to put anyone through being in a relationship with me, given how dangerous my life is.

Oh. I... I see... [ She pauses, shaking her head a little.]

That's actually not too different from my situation. I don't have anything that explicitly says that I'm not supposed to get in a relationship with someone, but I'm also only supposed to be going to other worlds if there's a situation going on that needs outside interference to resolve and... there aren't really too many of us around back home.

[ Of course, considering Yen Sid was retired and Mickey was busy running a world, it could be argued that she was the one in charge, but it's not like she had time to decide on changing any rules yet. ]

Mmm...

[Humming to herself, Kerra nods. That makes sense. That's how the Jedi were before the Chagras Hegemony, anyway.]

Well, honest question time, then. Are you against the idea of exploring that side of yourself? Not romance, since I think I know the answer to that, but your sexual side.

[ Aqua blinks, not saying anything as she thinks it over. Because it was a tricky question. It wasn't that she didn't like how sex felt; nor was she really going to have much of a choice considering the Iris moon's effect on her.

But actually wanting to explore this was... well... it wasn't a bad concept. It would be much nicer than just letting the Iris moon effects prod her into it again.]

I... I think I want to.

[Kerra nods in an animated way, laughing gently before leaning over and plopping a big, wet kiss on Aqua's cheek. Oh, that was meant to be playful.]

Good. Then, we can maybe explore that together. Assuming I'm not being too forward, I'd definitely be willing to have a repeat performance, when you're feeling ready.

...One where we go out to dinner first, remember everything, and figure out what you do and don't enjoy. And where I make you breakfast.

[ Aqua blushes at the feeling of Kerra's lips on her cheek, but it's not like all the other times she blushed. After all, with everything else they already did, a kiss like that was nothing. ]

That... that sounds great. It'd be nice to not have something like that happen because of the moons. [ For once. ]

Then it's a date.

[Pulling back, Kerra lets her expression slip into something more soft and sweet. Aqua deserves that.]

Maybe sometime after the next triple moon.

[ Aqua nods, smiling a little even as she's blushing at the prospect of... actually setting up something where she was planning on having sex.

Still, it was a ways off, so that wasn't really too embarrassing.]

That'd probably be for the best.

Yeah. When we're thinking clearly. That way, we can figure out what you like, and focus on that stuff.

It'll be fun. Promise.

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Hopefully not also during Sanguis.

Yeah, probably

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