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Well...

[Kerra's hand stays right where it's at, not moving, simply squeezing lightly and letting the pressure and Moonlacing hopefully take off some of the edge.]

There's a couple of things you should maybe mull over. First, do you enjoy sex? I don't mean in a moonlacing, or forced, sort of way. But do you enjoy the act? Aside from the pleasant effects of moonlacing, would you like to have sex?

Edited 2019-06-24 05:29 (UTC)

[ That contact actually does help a little, and Aqua thinks over her answers to Kerra's question for a few moments.]

I... I think so? It's not like it isn't enjoyable, but... I also don't really know how it's supposed to go without everything that this place adds to it. [ Sure, it was easy enough to tell what was the feeling of moonlacing vs what was from sex specifically, but even so, most of what she had done had been because she had been under the effects of Iris or all of the moons at once.]

So your first time was here...

[That makes sense, she thinks.]

And I'm guessing it was during a moon. So you never made the conscious choice to have sex on your own, did you?

[It's a simple thing, but it is something that can color a person's judgment.]

Yes, it was during the first Iris moon here.

[ And while it's not that she necessarily had sex with someone that she wasn't attracted to (at the very least she's pretty sure that everyone she had slept with at this point is someone she would've been drawn to somewhat without it), it didn't change that Iris had her in a situation where she definitely needed it.]

... I guess that wasn't the case for you though?

No. Not at all.

[Kerra's expression turns a little rakish...]

I figured my experience would've been obvious.

[Okay. Sorry. She's teasing but yeah...]

I enjoy it. I don't get to do it much, but I still like it.

[ Aqua laughs a little nervously at Kerra's response. ]

Yeah, I guess that really should've been obvious, though considering it's already been a couple of months since I arrived here, it isn't unthinkable to think that you could've arrived here with no experience and just... adapted to it better.

[ She pauses for a moment, before deciding to ask a question. ]

So... how exactly was it for you? I mean, outside of here? Was there anyone that you were in a relationship with?

Fun.

[That's Kerra's immediate answer. She doesn't have to put a ton of thought into it.]

It was just...fun. I am not able to have a relationship, outside of here, but 'hooking up' with people who I find attractive isn't a problem. I just can't commit to anything long term like dating.

[ Huh. That wasn't the answer that she was expecting to hear; she would've figured that the whole 'have sex with people you don't know' thing was something specific to here. Not something that was apparently normal and accepted.]

I see. Is there any reason why you're not able to have a relationship back home? [ From what she could tell, Kerra doesn't have the same problem that Aqua would, which was just a lack of people to fall in love with.

Unless if she counted people she met on other worlds but they're really only supposed to go to other worlds when the worlds are actively in danger.]

Jedi aren't supposed to form attachments. We're at war, and we're constantly supposed to go from planet to planet, protecting the innocent.

[In her time, things really were that black and white.]

Even if it weren't a problem with my vows, I wouldn't want to put anyone through being in a relationship with me, given how dangerous my life is.

Oh. I... I see... [ She pauses, shaking her head a little.]

That's actually not too different from my situation. I don't have anything that explicitly says that I'm not supposed to get in a relationship with someone, but I'm also only supposed to be going to other worlds if there's a situation going on that needs outside interference to resolve and... there aren't really too many of us around back home.

[ Of course, considering Yen Sid was retired and Mickey was busy running a world, it could be argued that she was the one in charge, but it's not like she had time to decide on changing any rules yet. ]

Mmm...

[Humming to herself, Kerra nods. That makes sense. That's how the Jedi were before the Chagras Hegemony, anyway.]

Well, honest question time, then. Are you against the idea of exploring that side of yourself? Not romance, since I think I know the answer to that, but your sexual side.

[ Aqua blinks, not saying anything as she thinks it over. Because it was a tricky question. It wasn't that she didn't like how sex felt; nor was she really going to have much of a choice considering the Iris moon's effect on her.

But actually wanting to explore this was... well... it wasn't a bad concept. It would be much nicer than just letting the Iris moon effects prod her into it again.]

I... I think I want to.

[Kerra nods in an animated way, laughing gently before leaning over and plopping a big, wet kiss on Aqua's cheek. Oh, that was meant to be playful.]

Good. Then, we can maybe explore that together. Assuming I'm not being too forward, I'd definitely be willing to have a repeat performance, when you're feeling ready.

...One where we go out to dinner first, remember everything, and figure out what you do and don't enjoy. And where I make you breakfast.

[ Aqua blushes at the feeling of Kerra's lips on her cheek, but it's not like all the other times she blushed. After all, with everything else they already did, a kiss like that was nothing. ]

That... that sounds great. It'd be nice to not have something like that happen because of the moons. [ For once. ]

Then it's a date.

[Pulling back, Kerra lets her expression slip into something more soft and sweet. Aqua deserves that.]

Maybe sometime after the next triple moon.

[ Aqua nods, smiling a little even as she's blushing at the prospect of... actually setting up something where she was planning on having sex.

Still, it was a ways off, so that wasn't really too embarrassing.]

That'd probably be for the best.

Yeah. When we're thinking clearly. That way, we can figure out what you like, and focus on that stuff.

It'll be fun. Promise.

[ Well, that still gets Aqua to blush again, though she has to admit that figuring out what she likes in regards to sex was pretty exciting. Though there was a point she needed to make...]

Honestly, a lot of what I've already done during the moons was stuff I ended up liking, so I'm sure that what we do will be enjoyable.

Well, that's completely fair. Sex generally is pretty nice, until it gets rough, and then that's up to the other person.

[If they like it or not, anyway.]

Are you more interested in taking control next time? I just kinda went, I know. The moons do that to me.

Maybe? It might be a good idea. I mean, there's always a case that I'll end up doing it with someone with less experience than I would sometime, so having some experience being the one in control will probably be a good thing.

I guess I'll let you know for sure next time we get together?

Sure, that works just fine for me.

[She grins.]

See? Not so scary, now is it?

[ And Aqua smiles back, before taking a more of a drink of her tea.]

Yeah, it really isn't.

Good. Glad we had this talk.

[If only so Aqua feels less bad about it.]

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